Usefulness

It seems all I’m good for anymore is what I can do for others. I get backlash from not being able to complete tasks that are ‘mine’. When I ask for help I get grumped at, or forgotten. When I give reminders of things I asked for help I either am a nag or the task was forgottten only to be forgotten again. When I do ask for help everyone expects that I want it done immediately. I never do, unless I specify needing help at that moment. We go through these circles of me asking getting told they are busy and me repeating again (for the millionth time) that I don’t need it done this very second. Then I get told to specify times. Why do I always have to bend? Why do I always have to work around others problems when mine aren’t. I’m tired. I want to quit. I’m tired of being the reasponsible one. I’m done.